This was, I admit, an unexpected sequel
to the original one shot, but when Edward starting panicking in my head, I had
to stop and listen to him.
There will be more to follow. At this
point I don’t know how many chapters, but I decided to split what I had already
and get the first part posted for you all.
Beta’d by mxpi1970
Disclaimer:
All characters owned and created by Stephenie Meyer.
~o.O.o~
Chapter 2
Edward’s POV
“Jasper?
Jasper, no; you’re not well.”
I reached for
his hand, trying stop him from pulling on his thin work shirt. He shrugged my
hand away to fasten his jeans.
“I have to,
Edward. The rent is due and we’re short.” He sounded winded, his actions
costing him effort. “Do you have work today?”
“Sure, later, only my regular hour though I
think. No one needs me today so I’m just sweeping up tonight.”
The occasional
extra income from me helping out other market vendors meant we could buy a tiny
bit more food, but then we risked not making rent. We walked a knife edge
between having a roof over our heads and keeping ourselves fed, but it relied
on us both earning. With Jasper sick I wanted to do more, to keep him in bed in
the warm to recover from sounded like the start of the flu.
He finished
dressing, and I saw that he was shivering. The room was cold like always, but
it was frosty outdoors and I hated him standing out there with a temperature
and only a shirt so thin you could count his ribs through it, offering no
warmth or protection from the weather.
I tried again.
“I know we’re
short this week – I’ll come up with something. I’ll ask around; we still have
two days. Please – stay inside today.”
I had no idea
how I was going to raise the money, but seeing him going out there to do
whatever the men wanted of him made me hate them and the way they abused him
for a few measly bucks. If I could find a way, any way of getting him off the
streets then I would do it. I watched him pull on his old jacket, watched him
snuggle into it enjoying it for a few brief moments before he had to stash it
behind the wall. As he always did, he turned to hug me before he went out to
the road. His hands were like ice and I pulled him in tight to me, trying to
share my body heat with him. I buried my face in his neck, breathing him in for
that last moment before I had to let him go. There was just time for one sweet
kiss to warm his cold lips before he turned and headed for the door.
Blondie was on
the clock.
~o.O.o~
Washing was a
fast, efficient business. The bathroom housed a toilet and a single sink with
cold running water; it was an icebox in the winter. The landlord didn’t bother
to heat it and we never asked him to – the likely outcome would be an increase
in rent which would see us living on the street. We paid him, we kept quiet
about the state of the place, and everything rolled on day after day. I wondered how long it would take him to
increase it anyway because there were two of us living there now; I had no idea
how we could cope. I worried more and more about Jasper. He’d told me in bed a
few nights back that he had had offers of more money to go without a condom and
he had refused, but what if that meant the difference between a home and the
alley?
The thought of
going back there was bad enough.
The thought of
losing Jasper was terrifying.
~o.O.o~
Determined to
prove I could do more, I walked to the market and headed up past Mike’s hotdog and
burger trailer. Mike was setting up, the familiar smell of sizzling beef
filling the immediate vicinity. He saw me and nodded in greeting.
“Hey, Edward! Jess
has a pre-natal check-up today.”
He looked both
nervous and excited. I grinned.
“Not long now!”
His eyebrows rose
so high they all but disappeared into his hair and he began chopping onions
with considerable zeal. The father-to-be was getting anxious now the day was
drawing close.
“Don’t remind
me! There’s still so much to do before the baby comes.”
“Let me know
how it goes!”
He carried on
with his prep, and I waved before heading off to see Tyler on the fruit and
vegetable stand. He also owned the whole foods stand next door, run by his
wife, Lauren. Jasper and I ate well – at least our food was fresh – but I knew
that we didn’t eat enough. I needed to know what food to buy to help him get
well and to build his immune system. I had no real idea of nutrition. After
all, living out of trash cans didn’t give you the most rounded diet. I knew Jas
gave me more food – he wanted to make me strong and well, but at what cost? He
worked and needed his strength too. I
hated what he did – I knew he did too – but as a source of income for rent he
couldn’t afford to stop. That didn’t stop me worrying though. I worried that he
might get sick and not be able to recover. Who knew what lay ahead for us,
either of us? The risks for Jas were greater, and I wanted him free of that
life. Free from the abuse he tolerated at the hands of paying strangers in
order for us to survive. More than anything I wanted to make money. I wanted to
support us, to free us from this life that held us in its iron manacles.
My only steady
income was my nightly sweep up gig after closing, but I had gotten to know the
other stallholders and they trusted me. After I’d been there a few weeks, I had
been called over by Paul, one of the flower vendors, and been asked if I would
cover him for a few minutes while he went off to take a phone call. I was
waiting to start cleaning up and so it was no problem for me to stand cover for
him, but the fact that he trusted me made me feel 10 feet tall. I even made a
sale before he returned: nothing major, just a bunch of sunflowers, but Paul
was pleased. After that, I would spend most of the day in the market, helping
anyone who needed it. A couple of dollars extra from helping out made a world
of difference to our budget. When I started covering for an hour at a time, the
money went towards any rent shortage we encountered in bad weather, and paid
for extra non-perishable food. Each evening Jas would come find me, and together
we would buy our meal for that night. We still bought the cheapest we could,
there was no money to waste and no food could be thrown away. We ate everything
we had.
I grew uneasy
that evening when the market was set to close and he didn’t appear. With no
phone or means to contact him, I made stops at each stall to gather essentials
for supper, finding vegetables, scrawny chicken legs, and a tiny piece of
leftover cheese, more wax than cheese to be honest, and for that reason it cost
very little. I planned to make chicken and vegetable broth for our main meal
and so I had spent almost all of that day’s wages, managing to afford a small pot
of honey and a jar of the cheapest coffee known to man.
Carrying my bag,
I headed home, sure that I would pass Jasper on the way. He must have had a
busy day – he would never be late or not show. The first raindrops fell and my
step quickened. I hoped Jas was in the dry – that shirt would be saturated in
seconds. With his chest he didn’t need that. Breaking into a run, I held the
bag handles together to keep our food dry. It was darker than usual, the sky
foreboding. Pulling my coat in tight around me against the biting wind, common
sense reminded me that Jas never stayed out when the weather was bad, unless he’s in a warm, dry car, my
subconscious reminded me. I always tried to forget the things he had to do for
us that he did without complaint every single day. I did my best not to comment
on the bruises, the scuffs on his hands from holding on to a wall, the other
marks that were only visible to someone who saw him naked. Fingertip bruises on
his hips and neck were bookmarks in a story I didn’t ever want to read. He had
told me once that he knew his place was to be merely a receptacle - a mouth or
an ass. No john he ever met ever asked to suck him, nor be fucked by him. His
needs were ignored. Sometimes his throat would be sore, inflamed by a rough
client who thought it okay to misuse my beautiful boy. My boy. Because he was mine and I didn’t want anyone’s
hands on him.
I liked to
bathe him at night, soothing caresses to wash off the sullying touch and smell
of others, to relax him and ease him into a restful sleep alongside me. At
night, when we cuddled close together, I was able to hold him and show him best
I could the love I felt for him every minute of every day.
More than
anything, I loved it when we kissed – that was when the world fell away, leaving
us in a safe, loving cocoon. Love was new to me; I’d never received it before
Jasper, nor had I ever given it or wanted to. It was an amazing feeling. I wanted
to show him how I felt, to show him the tender touch he was denied day after
day, year after year. I just wished I wasn’t so scared. I wanted to make him
happy, but each time I considered it, the nightmares would return; Jasper would
hold me tight, rocking me like a child until I quieted. It had been over two
months since we met and I wondered if he longed for more, if he hoped our
relationship would ever progress to a more mature level.
He deserved
more than an emotionally damaged boy from the street.
I reached home
without meeting Jas, and fear was starting to set in. Closing the outside door
behind me, I went to unlock the door to our room and found it open. With a
caution bred from experience, I snuck inside, prepared for... what? Who would
ever rob us? We had nothing. Placing the food on the counter, I looked over at
the bed and saw a shape under the blankets. From where I stood I could see he
was huddled up, his breathing sounding far harsher than it had when I had left
him that morning. Sitting on the edge of the bed, I rubbed his shoulder to let
him know I was home. He was shivering and felt feverish even through the
blankets. It looked as if I had been right – he had the flu. This meant two
things. Firstly – he couldn’t work, and secondly, I could contract it too. I
wanted to stay home and nurse him through it, but I knew I had to work
tomorrow.
This was bad.
Trying to find
a light at the end of the tunnel, I remembered I had bought the ingredients to
make chicken broth that would, I hoped, help him recover a little quicker. I
had also spent precious funds on the honey to make him a soothing drink for his
throat when he came home sore. I set to work, boiling water and preparing the
ingredients as I had seen Jasper do every day. I had asked Eric, the meat
vendor, how to make it, and he had told me about bouillon and pointed me to
another stand. I guess anyone else would have been embarrassed to ask for just
one cube, but Jas and I were past that. After her initial surprise, Angela had
pressed one into my hand with a smile, along with an individually wrapped pat
of butter left over from her lunch, and told me to get on home. I promised to
cover her stand whenever she needed it, and she brushed off my thanks.
I boiled the
water first and made weak coffee for me and honey in hot water for Jasper.
Leaving them to cool a little, I then cooked the chicken and set it aside,
washing out the pan before starting off the vegetables in the butter. I added the
flour and chicken stock, stirring and then leaving it to simmer as I had been
told. Carrying the hot honey drink to the bed, I set it down and felt his
forehead.
He was clammy.
“Jasper? Wake up, Jas. I need you to drink this.”
He woke with a
groan, gasping in pain when he tried to sit up. I reached over and tugged my
pillow out from under the blankets, setting it behind his shoulders.
“Thanks.”
“What happened
since this morning? Is it the flu? You’re running a fever.”
He shook his
head, the movement seeming to tire him.
“My chest
really hurts, like someone is stabbing me. It hurts to breathe. I just need
some sleep – so tired. Just can’t get comfortable.”
Worry unfurled
its wings in my own chest. I felt a cold, gripping fear that something was very
wrong. I held out the drink and he took it, my hand supporting the cup while he
drank.
“You’re
cooking?” His wan face looked surprised.
“Yeah; I got some
helpful tips from a couple of people at the market. We’re having chicken broth
– I want to help you get strong again.”
“How did you
afford it on a couple of dollars?” He looked worried, and I was quick to allay
his fears.
“It’s okay – I
didn’t touch the rent money. I got an hour’s work covering Lauren over lunch today.
I got us a few extras like the honey and some coffee. It’s mostly dust, but
it’s better than just drinking hot water.”
“Was there
anything left?”
I felt cold
then.
“No, I used it
on tonight’s meal with some cheese for breakfast. What’s wrong?”
His face
screwed up in anguish, and to my horror, I thought he was going to cry.
“I didn’t earn
anything today. We won’t make rent.” Ice slithered down my spine. “As soon as I
leaned over, I couldn’t breathe. The guy didn’t want anything to do with a sick
hustler and he threw me out of the car.”
He sounded
humiliated. I tried to make him feel better.
“It’s not your
fault! You can’t help getting sick, especially being out there every day in the
cold. I’ll find a way to get the money. I don’t want you worrying about this.”
I tucked the blankets up around his shoulders and fetched his scarf from the
chair, winding it loosely around his neck and shoulders. “Are you hungry?”
He nodded. I
went back to the saucepan and added the cooked chicken, stirring it to heat it
through. It smelled pretty good. Ladling it out into two bowls, I grabbed the
spoons and carried the bowls to the bed, setting them on the chair. Folding our
thin towels, I made us potholders so we could both eat in comfort. The soup
tasted good and I was glad it was too hot to gulp down; I had to take my time
to eat it. Jasper struggled to eat his, but persevered. I could see that every
mouthful was painful and not because of a sore throat. His breathing appeared
laboured, and he was having difficulty swallowing. I kept watch to make sure he
ate as much as he could, needing the essential nourishment to get well.
When we had
both finished, I washed the pan and bowls before settling in for the night and
climbing into bed with my boy. He seemed to breathe easier when propped up, so
I made sure his chest was well covered with a thick sweater before I laid down,
my head on one of the towels we had used as a potholder.
I didn’t sleep
much that night.
~o.O.o~
I dozed off at
some point and woke up feeling alone. I realised it was because I usually slept
tight against Jasper, but with him sick I had had to give him space. Turning
over, I looked up to see how he was and found him slumped to the side,
apparently asleep. It was still early, the light not yet filtering through the
trees. Double checking to make sure Jas was okay, I dressed in my jeans and
sweater, shrugging on my too-big coat and fastening it up to the collar. It was
time to go get some essentials.
I stepped out
into the frigid early morning air. The run-down part of the city where we lived
was quiet for now, the sound of traffic and the trains no more than a dull
rattle in the distance. I walked with purpose, no time to lose. This operation
could only be carried out in near darkness – I had no desire to be arrested for
trying to survive. Approaching the shopping center, I looked around, checking
for staff or passersby. The coast clear, I darted across the parking lot to
where the clothing donation bins were situated off to the side. A few months
back, I had discovered that one of these bins had a broken latch, and with a
little effort could be opened and the contents accessed. My coat had been a
lucky find and had most likely saved my life. Now I needed its help again. I
knew what I was doing was theft in its basic definition, but it was hard to
differentiate when the clothes were being collected for thrift stores to help
the poor and needy – and what were Jasper and I if not poor and needy? We had
no money to buy from the thrift stores; to me this was just cutting out the
middle man.
Locating the
bin, I tugged open the door a fraction and peered inside into the gloom. It
looked to be about a third full and I hoped that there would be something
useful for us. My hands felt around for anything thick and woolly, and after a
few moments I pulled loose a towel that looked fine – there were no holes and,
most importantly, no strange odours. I folded it and tucked it into my coat.
The next thing I found was a sweater, but a glance showed me it was a child’s.
Ferreting deeper, I struck gold – what felt like a hand-knitted blanket large
enough to cover the bed. I added this to my coat, now bulked out to capacity,
before one last feel around in the dark bin. My fingers found more knitted
goods and with a pull, I found what appeared to be a very festive men’s
sweater. Pushing the door closed, I snagged some brightly coloured socks that
fell out onto the asphalt and added them to my pockets. Mission accomplished, I
checked around before heading home at a brisk pace.
~o.O.o~
Jas was still
asleep when I crept in and locked the door. Slipping off my clothes, I climbed
back into bed, checking he was breathing okay before lying back down to spend
another couple of hours worrying about our money situation.
Acquiring
clothes from donation bins by nefarious means was one thing, to me that was an
act of desperation that could be mitigated, but stealing from actual people was
something I could never do. We needed rent money and it was down to me to find
a way. To begin with, I had four dollars
saved up for a special Christmas surprise for Jasper. It wasn’t enough yet – I
needed at least $11 – but now it had to be added to the pot. Checking the money
under the mattress, I found that with my four dollars added in we were still
$20 short, with only today left to make it up.
My regular hour
would help, but I would need more work throughout the day and I pondered ways
of increasing my income that would benefit both us and the vendors.
Jasper woke
early, a cough racking his body. He whined with pain, clutching his chest, his
eyes wide with agony. I fetched him a drink to calm the dryness of his throat
and offered him a little bread and cheese for breakfast. He refused, his chest
hurting too much to eat. I made sure he was able to get to the bathroom, and
got him tucked back in under the covers with a drink before I headed off to the
market to try and achieve the impossible.
I hated being
away from Jasper when he needed me, and he was in my mind every moment. Forcing
myself to focus, I asked the vendors first up if they needed any help that day.
No one had anything definite and so I moved to plan B. I offered to fetch and
carry for the customers, helping them load their bags and then carrying them to
their cars. All this extra exertion on an empty stomach wasn’t the best, but I
was hoping that perhaps one kind soul would tip me a few cents. They didn’t,
although I noticed that they bought a little more from each stand when they
didn’t have to carry it themselves.
My next plan
was to offer to demonstrate how the Christmas wreaths would look when decorated
with flowers and berries. Paul looked at me with some amusement when I
suggested to him that I work for free to try and drum up some extra interest in
his displays, but he didn’t say no. So, for the next hour I added seasonal
blooms to a couple of his plain displays and sold both for a good mark up on
his regular prices. Paul laughed and said he was impressed with my ingenuity,
handing me a couple of dollars as a thank you.
I wished I could
help out on the food trailers, but it wasn’t allowed. I knew I would most
likely pick up a few coins of loose change when sweeping up, but we needed more
than a few cents. I walked towards the exit to stretch my legs and to sit for a
moment on the benches outside. A woman sat there with her dog, looking at her
watch. I pointed to the bench, silently asking if it was okay for me to sit,
and she smiled. Her dog, a large crossbreed, came over to say hello, sniffing
me over and wagging its tail in welcome. With another questioning look, I asked
if it was okay to respond. This time she laughed.
“Rosie loves
people. She can take all the attention you want to give.”
As if hearing
her mistress, Rosie rolled her head against my leg, her tongue lolling out, and
placed a paw on my arm. I made a huge
fuss of the gorgeous creature, loving the trust she had in me to not hurt her.
Her owner sighed.
“I need to go
get some groceries, but having Rosie makes it difficult. I need both hands free
and it’s crowded in there. She’s no trouble, good as gold, but my usual sitter
is sick and so … here we are.” She shrugged her shoulders, not knowing what to
do. I thought fast.
“Can I help?
I’d be happy to help you shop and carry your bags for you. I work part time at
the market and I like to keep busy.”
She looked at
me in surprise, not expecting the offer.
“If you would
do that for me, then I have a better idea. Would you sit with Rosie so I can
dash in and get my groceries? She clearly likes you and she is very placid –
she won’t try and run off.” She bit her lip, hope flaring in her eyes.
“Sure! We’ll be
good, won’t we, girl?” I rubbed the soft ears in my hand and Rosie let out a
groan of pleasure, falling back against my leg. The woman looked relieved.
“Thank you so
much for this. I’ll be back in a few minutes. Rosie! Stay. Be a good girl.”
The tail
thump-thumping against my leg seemed to answer in the affirmative.
The woman was good
to her word, and less than 20 minutes later she reappeared with two bags
brimming with vegetables, fish and meat. Rosie greeted her in true canine
style, jumping and circling as if she had been gone for at least a week.
Laughing, she set the bags down and fussed her happy dog.
“What is your
name?”
“Edward,
ma’am.”
She held out
hand and I shook it.
“I’m Esme. Well,
Edward, thank you - you were a life saver today. I hope you’re here again if I
need someone to babysit my soppy girl here.” Without preamble, she reached into
her purse and pressed a bill into my hand. I tried to refuse – it had been a
pleasure, and I had done so little - but she insisted. Her regular dog service
evidently charged a great deal and she wanted to pay. Stunned, I looked at the
ten dollar bill in my hand and thanked her many times. I patted Rosie farewell
and watched them walk away. Although she couldn’t have known, that day Esme
saved Jasper and me.
After my hour’s
shift was done, I made to leave when I heard my name. It was Tony. He had saved
us some fruit and vegetables and wondered why I hadn’t been to see him. I
swallowed hard and headed over to him, knowing I had to explain why I couldn’t
buy our food today. He looked at me, his face showing unexpected concern when
he saw I carried no bags. Taking a deep breath, I looked him in the eye.
“I’m so sorry,
Tony. Jasper’s sick and so we only have the money I make here. Rent comes
first.” I shrugged, hoping he understood.
His face
dropped, a frown creasing his brow.
“I knew things
were tight – why else would you only ever buy the leftover spoils. But to not
eat? He’ll get much sicker with no food at all.”
I started to
shake. I knew we needed food if Jas was to get better and I was willing to go
without to get him well, but our landlord didn’t care about us being hungry
when rent day came around. We needed a roof over our heads more.
“We can’t be
evicted. There’s nowhere for us to go, but without enough money…”
Everything
felt futile.
“But there are
places that can help, Edward. Haven’t you heard of food pantries and soup kitchens?
There’s one not too far from here. You’ll need to check, but I think it opens
Tuesday mornings. You can both eat there.”
Hope blossomed,
a small, bright spot in a dark sea of fear.
“They’ll give
us food?”
He nodded, his
lined face filled with concern.
“You need to
eat too, in order to work.” He was as if he had read my mind. Moving with quick,
deft motion, he bagged some fruit and vegetables and handed them to me. “Take
them and we’ll say no more about it. Go home and eat before you drop. I’ve
watched you work today, running back and forth; I bet not one of those
ungrateful people paid you, did they?”
I shook my
head.
“I thought as
much. Take what they can get and never so much as say thank you.” Letting out a
piercing whistle, he attracted Mike’s attention. A couple of quick gestures and
a pointed finger at me constituted a conversation I didn’t catch. “Go see Mike
on your way out; he’ll see you right. See you tomorrow.”
I nodded my
thanks for the food, a smile of gratitude curling my lips despite my fears.
Clutching the bag, I did as instructed and walked to Mike’s trailer.
“Hey. Gimme a
minute and I’ll have them ready for you.”
“What?” I was
confused.
Moments later
two wrapped burgers and fries appeared in front of me. He grinned at my shock.
“They’re on Tony.” He winked. “He has to make a living like the rest of us, but
he worries about you and how little you two eat. It’s not hard to see how fiercely
independent you both are…”
My throat
clicked and I fought tears. I nodded, not trusting myself to speak. I took the
hot food and opened one package, taking a hearty bite of the fragrant contents.
My eyes closed at the sensation. I turned to leave and caught Tony’s eye. I
raised my hand, holding my food, and he gave a curt nod in acknowledgement. I
headed home as fast as I could, knowing how fast the food would cool.
~o.O.o~
“Jas?”
I set down the
bag and went straight to his side. He opened his eyes, coughing when he tried
to sit up. I helped him, propping him with the pillows.
“What happened?
How did it go?”
There was no
expectation in his voice, hopelessness already taking hold. I took his hands.
“I got the
money, Jas. We can make rent. I got some food too. Can you try and eat a
little? You need your strength to fight this flu.”
He coughed
again and I hurried to fetch him more cold water while I set some to boil for a
hot drink. He sipped and handed me back the cup.
“Tell me what
happened.” He sounded winded and gruff.
“First up, eat
a little of this before it goes cold. I’ve eaten most of mine.” I unwrapped the
burger and fries and laid them on a towel on his lap.
He looked
confused, but picked at the beef patty and onions, eating them with his fingers.
I watched him, making sure he ate as much as he could manage while it was
fresh. Looking at him, I could see the questions.
“Okay. I made a
little extra working for Paul, and I tried to make some tips, but that didn’t
work out. Anyhow, this nice lady was outside with her dog and she needed
someone to sit with her so I did, and she paid me ten bucks.”
“Ten bucks?
You’re kidding me.” He ate another piece of patty. “But how… the food…? We
can’t afford burgers, and you didn’t find them hot in the trash.”
I shook my head
and explained about Tony. Jas looked embarrassed and ashamed.
“I’ve never
accepted hand outs, never. I work for my money.”
“He knows that
– it’s why he never offered to help before. But Jas, we’re desperate now. Without his kindness we would have no food tonight,
and we both need to eat. Me, so I can work tomorrow, and you to get better. Please
tell me you see that?”
He picked at
his food some more, eating a few fries, but leaving the burger bun untouched.
“He told me
something else too. There are places we can go once a week to eat, for free. No
one ever told me that before. Did you know?”
He looked at me
with wide, disbelieving eyes.
“Free? How?”
“There are places
that help people who have no money. I’m going to find out more and then we are
going to go and have a proper meal there every week until we make enough money
to be able to support ourselves without help. That means one morning a week we
can go and get enough food to fill our stomachs and maybe even squirrel a
little bit back for the next day. It will make our rations stretch farther.” My face fell for a moment. “I really think you
need to see a doctor.”
Jasper winced,
both in pain from his ribs and the ever-present worry of imminent eviction.
“We can’t
afford doctors.” His dry cough caused him to grab at his chest, buckling in
pain. His face was grey.
“Everyone at
the market knows I’m up for any extra jobs. Plus I found us a few things.”
Recalling my
early morning raid, I left him to slowly eat his burger, and went to make
coffee and to fetch our new supplies. Coming back to the bed, I felt an anxious
pang of worry that Jasper might be mad at what I had done, but I couldn’t hide
it from him.
His eyes were
cautious. “Found?”
My face fell.
“Don’t be
angry. I went back to where I found my coat. I wanted to see what they had that
would help us. I was careful, I swear.”
I watched him
try and push himself up.
“Tell me.”
In a halting
voice I told him about the broken donation bin, laying the blanket, sweater,
towel and socks on the bed.
“We need these
things, Jas. We are the people these
are collected for.”
He looked
defeated and coughed again, his face white.
“You’re sure
you weren’t seen?”
“I was careful,
and if I hadn’t done it the first time I would’ve died without my coat. Please
don’t be mad, Jas.”
He looked
horrified, and I misinterpreted it as anger until he reached out for me and
tried to hug me, an ugly sob escaping his chest.
“I could never
be mad at you. You’re so resourceful – I feel ashamed I haven’t looked after
you better. I wanted to keep us safe, and I’ve failed.”
I kissed his
temple, holding him in a gentle hug.
“No! No you
haven’t. We look after each other – that’s the way it is. Getting sick can’t be
helped. I’ll do everything I can to make next week’s rent so you can stop
worrying.”
His fingers
plucked at the blanket.
“This is good.
It’s thick.”
“It’ll also
make a good pillow to prop you up.”
“Yeah, it’ll
help. Are those socks?”
I could have
laughed at his sudden enthusiasm. We had three pairs of socks between us.
“Yeah, a couple
of pairs – unworn by the look of them. Guess someone didn’t like the colour.”
He shook his
head in disbelief. “Like it matters!
These will keep our feet dry - no holes!”
“So you’re not
mad?”
His hand took
mine.
“No. I think
you’re a genius. Better not go again though – don’t risk it.”
He was right, I
knew it, but I also knew that unless they fixed that bin, I would try again
when the need arose.
I fussed with
the blanket and made sure he was wrapped up out of the draught.
He handed me
the rest of his fries and the untouched burger bun.
“Eat the fries,
but keep the bun for breakfast tomorrow.”
I nodded. I had
eaten mine, the excitement of food had made me forget to save something for the
next day, but not Jasper. He was always thinking, always planning for later.
His good heart made me feel small. I ate the fries while they were still lukewarm
and cleaned up for bed. Our vegetables and fruit would keep for one more day.
Carrying our drinks, I climbed into bed. Before I settled down for the night I
pulled on an extra pair of socks. The weather was turning bitter at night and I
longed for the day when I could snuggle up to Jasper again.
~o.O.o~
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